When we experience severe pain for extended periods of time, it’s not uncommon for our suffering to dominate every part of our being. From this place, the journey back to a full and productive life can seem insurmountable.
I deeply understand how difficult and nearly impossible this journey seems based on my own experience with severe pain. In 2009, while working in the internet technology industry of Silicon Valley, I began to develop pain. After many unsuccessful doctor visits, pain management medications, procedures and therapies, my pain spread into every joint in my body until I became bedridden and wheelchair-bound.
I had lost everything that I previously held dear: my career, self-worth, identity, husband, home, money and piles of collectibles I had treasured so dearly. For years, I struggled to move or even breathe without pain and my quality of life deteriorated to the point where suicide seemed to be the only escape from pain.
With my last hope, I turned to mindfulness as a last-ditch effort to save my life.